Struck but staying STRONG

A little over a month ago a law in my state was proposed to change the way Chiropractors, Massage Therapists and Acupuncturists earn a living.  Read $0.  The lawmakers' game plan was mainly to eradicate and tackle the issue of fraud in this state.

The law passed 22-17 vote in the Senate this past week and many professionals are shell shocked.

My husband is a Chiropractor.  He's an honest, hard working and dedicated man.  He's upheld his profession to the highest degree and believes in the power to make a difference through the human touch.

His ultimate goal is to run a full wellness practice to serve the public in their desire to be healthy, happy and non-subluxated.  Unfortunately, we live in a city that makes it difficult to run a full wellness practice because the truth is, most want a 'quick fix' and plastic surgery takes the cake here.  It's the truth.  Wellness is not a priority where we live.

Anything is possible but when you have an uphill battle to run against and now a bulldozer law that forces my husband's profession to make nil, the outlook is bleak.  We have many options to consider and the thought of it all is extremely scary.  The unknown is always stress inducing.

I've filled my Facebook page with status updates on my thoughts about all this and many have offered their support and encouragement on the 'what's next?' aspect of it.

I know that 'everything happens for a reason' and that when 'one door closes, another one opens' but it still feels debilitating and shocking all at once for a person to handle.  I've kept a calm and strong head throughout all this.  I guess that there could be worse things, right?! 

My family is healthy, strong and able to do many things.  I know that nothing can stop us from making our lives anything but amazing, even if there are some bumpy roads ahead of us.
Unity and strength will carry us FORWARD.  We all want the best for our families and options are always a good place to start.

"When life gets you down you know what you gotta do? Just keep swimming!" 

-Dory (Finding Nemo)   

Because I hold an terminal (meaning that I can teach at University level) MFA in Creative Writing, I'm hoping to find some kind of teaching position either at a local college or online (whichever comes first!)  Freelance writing is always and open option too.  I know that something will open up for me.  I'm confident!  There is much to consider but I'm extremely positive about the road ahead.    

I'm throwing this out to the Universe and to the higher powers beyond me, hear my plea!

I have the courage and the passion to move forward, no matter what.

I wrote this earlier on my FB:

"When adversity stands IN your way, push it OUT of the way. When the odds are AGAINST you, prove them WRONG. When all the chips fall to the ground, pick them up and hold your head up HIGH. When your options are slim, think BIGGER and CREATE something OUTSIDE of the box. When you think that there is nothing left to consider, turn to the people that TRULY love and support you because there is not ONE thing that one cannot overcome because NO ONE can take away your DIGNITY, KNOWLEDGE or WORTH. Where a WILL exists there will always be a WAY to get there." - Vanessa Jubis

Thank you to my friends and family that have already offered your words of encouragement through this gray moment in our lives.  You. are. my. heart.
 

Letter to {my organ}...

Dear Heart,

You were the first sign of life before I looked like a curled up shrimp.  It was you that supplied the necessary beats to account for my life.  You like to resemble the size of my fist which can actually use a bit more moisturizer but how would you know, you're stuck in my chest cavity.  Aside from the vital aspects of you, I hold you in high regard because you see, you take some pounding every now and again.  Not the physical type of pounding like that of a gorilla hitting it's chest, no, more like the emotional pounding of a broken heart shattered by contempt.

You carry the burden of a heavy heart and also the joys of a heart that wants to sing and sometimes even the sadness of disappointment because that's how you beat.  That's how you sound and live and pump inside this chest cavity that bears your weight.  It doesn't matter how many times you've pumped moments of bliss or moments of pleasures or even moments of pain, you continue to pump your life and replenish your wounds because you live for me.  You've lived to recover from any emotional burden that threatens your skill.  You're a master of resilience and a lover of peace.  You recognize when I've had enough and you know when I need to make more space for one more wonder.

I thank you lovely organ heart.  Thank you for holding my love for the world.  Thank you for holding my burdens and joys, my sadness and guilt and even the love that I retain from those who have betrayed me because you've shown me that it's better to love than to envy or hate.  Thank you for turning my trampled heart into a shield of strength because without your desire to drive the life through me, I would be nothing.  Here is to an organ worth every second of sound, every flitting of love, every wrecked dream and every moment of truth.  I heart you lovely organ!